Monthly Archives: July 2010

7/31/10 – poem, a chant of recount

The first line was a computer generated statement by a bot in a chatroom. I just kinda went with it.
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can we have a chant of recount
a psalm to reconsider
this touch of blood to throat to word
and recreate our past within these
stones that chamber
ever higher
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7/30/10 – angiogram or candygram?

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Had an appointment with my cardiologist’s LN this afternoon, as a follow-up on my stress test and imaging last week, and a prelim to my angiogram.
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My cardiologist in a voice mail and quick phone call just flatly said what could be wrong, what the possible outcomes of the angiogram were – have the test and get released by 2:00, get a stent while they were up in there and stay overnight, be admitted for open heart surgery. She also noted my heart was pumping 1/4 less than it was at my last stress test imaging 2 years ago. And not to exercise or do anything that would get my heart and blood pressure going until we get the results of the angio.

When the hospital called to make arrangements, they also said to bring clothes and belongings in case I’ll be staying.

So… I live alone – and a lot of my life is online – so if there is the possibility (as presented, 1 of 3 options) they’ll keep me in the hospital for days or a week and the recovery at home after, I have to make arrangements for things that a spouse or significant other would know to take care of and they wouldn’t have to think about. For instance, I park on the street, and our street has alternate parking. If I am away, I have to arrange for someone to have a key to my car and move it from one side to the other sometime Wednesday evening to Thursday morning. Little things like that.

And, writing and giving someone I trust implicitly a list of my most important strictly online friends (cyber romantic and otherwise) so she can email and IM them to let them know they won’t be hearing from me for a couple weeks. The last time I admitted myself to the hospital I didn’t get back online, at all, for 3-1/2 weeks – with no warning to anyone.
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But… the LN gets me – we have hilarious appointments, and if she weren’t (apparently) “engaged to be engaged”…

She gave some nuances about my results the cardiologist hadn’t given me. Yes, my heart pumping power dropped by 1/4 in two years, but it was still just 3 percentage points below what is considered the normal range for a nominally healthy man my age. Still not bad for a man with my history.

And the abnormalities with my heart noted by the imaging – there are 5 measures – all 5 registered as “mild”.

Apparently, the decision to have me get an angiogram was not automatic, but she and the cardiologist deliberated a bit about it. And with my history -and my ongoing mysterious fatigue – they wanted to do some more looking before anything did happen.

And, even with stress test and 2 sets of heart imaging, and all the points of measure… the likelihood of a false positive is still 15%!

So now I think I should get back to my usual worrying about getting hit by a bus on the way to the hospital… And plan to stop at the brand new Tim Horton’s in the lobby to grab my first coffee of the day after I get discharged Monday afternoon.

Thank you everyone for your concern and encouragement!!
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7/29/10 – poem, Falstaff

Not sure why this burbled up in my mind. but it did. Sometimes – always – words jamb in my mind through some kind of Brownian motion and cluster, cluster, re-cluster, and make their own gravity.
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Falstaff rolling on
roll anon
here astage
this huge hill of flesh
a summer santa
a beer-lost uncle
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7/28/10 – found poem, the Boeing 787 Dreamliner with this large treasure

I came across this hefty gem on what is apparently a fake phishing computer sales website, boasting “178% discount”.

Duskwort – according to Wikipedia – is an imaginary plant from the recent children’s book “The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Perilous Journey” by Trenton Lee Stewart
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Photoshop Cs5 Minimun Requirements
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Photoshop cs5 minimun requirements
foxtrots have been even public
in this internet and planned critical favourite
but together chinese home funded
as the Boeing 787 Dreamliner with this large treasure.
This accurately stops at 20
photoshop cs5 minimun requirements by 2020
though this may be used to 30 account.

The office who held the area in this addition
was either one whose mobile photoshop
cs5 minimun requirements might be removed.
Alamo community college district,
photoshop cs5 minimun requirements.

Distributing original capabilities,
vietnam’s increase century
is under a collectible duskwort
designed by the photoshop cs5
minimun requirements.
These aren’t named with less
11th killings and hundreds,
photoshop cs5 minimun requirements.
The owl would leave a main photoshop
cs5 minimun requirements
for over a newspaper
while the legislature marketing on tokens for the mansion.
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7/27/10 – found poem, HELP!

Thank you everyone for your concern. Talked with cardiologist’s office this morning – went right to hospital for blood draw and chest x-rays, which she wants for an office visit EKG and consult on Friday.  Angiogram Monday, all day affair – and overnight if they decide to give me a stent.

So today, as a sorbet, a “found poem” – actually, a spam-flagged comment I received, lol. I cut the links of course, changed an apparent brand name and eliminated a recurring nonsense letter string – which I assume is a self-search marker for the spammer.
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HELP!
I’m currently being
held prisoner by the
Russian mafia
penis enlargement
and being forced
to post spam comments
on blogs and forum!
If you don’t approve this
they will kill me.
penis enlargement
They’re coming back now
viagra
Please send help!
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7/26/10 – poem, those drumbeats

Not the best news from my cardiologist – she’s scheduling an angiogram to try to parse more. She told me in the meantime not to exercise. But in exercise, relatively new to me – swimming, biking – is my true philosophizing, birthing shape and action and challenge into the world.

I’m sure I’ll feel more confident tomorrow.
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the time taken to
think on time
lost lost lost
those drumbeats I
swallowed
not quite heard
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7/24/10 – poem, can a question be unanswered

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the why the where
can a question be unanswered
or is it of the fuller knowledge
halved with its answer
truthed into a sphere
cleaved unto its mirror sister

only to be
treasoned then by mind alone
sundered shallowly by our words
syllabant fumbling steel edged
slicing parsing what is truth
concomitant
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